I have a pseudo-friend, his name's Mr. D, who just came up with one of the most brilliant ideas this side of the polluted country. GMA as the Mole of Asia... Brilliant..

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Apparently the President ate something bad the other night and so she had to spend some time at the hospital coz her tummy hurts. Awww. Even the President of the Philippines gets hit by impacho or kabag or... pagtatae once in a while... Hihihi.. Too bad she gets major tv coverage. Kung alam mo ngang maraming naghihintay sa labas ng banyo ay hindi ka matae, yun pa kayang may media coverage ang pananakit ng tiyan mo???

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My grampa is in a different state of mind today. He's curiously strong-- after just undergoing dialysis at that. But his state of mind is a bit out of whack. Case in point, my grampa-- who usually needs help to get up and walk to and fro-- got up at around 8pm walks himself out of his room and yells, "Sino yung bisitang negro na yun?"

Forgive him if he seems politically incorrect.

We must not forget that there was no visitor, never mind if he's a black guy or white. NO visitor. Yet he insists that he saw one. He thinks we're hiding the guy from him. He was all but ready to smoke the darn visitor out.

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Uh-oh... I wonder where my Grampa is right now. Maybe in a different plane... coz here's the eerie quote to cap the story. When my sister said, "Pano mo nakita na may bisita eh nanjan ka lang sa kwarto mo?"

He replies, "Kahit nandito ako sa kwarto nakikita ko ang mga ginagawa niyo diyan sa sala..." WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA....

"Remember that when the sun goes down for sunset, it will tae part of your life with it."
-Indian Proverb

Nothing rings truer today than this. I've seen close to two dozen Manila sunsets since I got back. All of them are now fragments in time, who I was when I saw them are now just memories. A day at a time, I said to myself. This, to forget about the future. As always, I cannot dare to peek at what lies ahead. I do not know what lies ahead. It may be a ghost from the past or a whole new direction. Both aren't exactly cheerful options. I just want things the way they were.

Funny how life touches us with a wand that puts us in places where we're forced to drastically change ourselves. Months, weeks, days, minutes will pass and the next, you're not the same person. You can't be the same person. Some people will find an enemy in time. Me, I'm stuck in the moment.

Tomorrow is my birthday. I'm not exactly thrilled. I dunno. Maybe I had celebrated my birthday 2 weeks ago in Japan. That's when I can define myself and my disposition as being truly happy. But tomorrow is just another day. No birthday cakes, or spaghetti or whatever will make it any different.

This is my reality. I'm living a dramatic scene. And I can't be in it.